Big Changes Ahead

The last couple weeks have been a roller coaster of feelings ranging from excitement and joy to stress and exhaustion. Funny thing is that all of these emotions come from the same two occurrences: getting a puppy and graduating college. Yikes. Not to complain…I mean, I knew the whole puppy thing would be a bit of a stresser, which is why I decided to get her now so that I have the summer to train her before I start my full time job in September. I won’t get into it any further than that (I’m sure you can imagine all of the fun and not-so-fun things I’m experiencing with Miss Riley). I’ll keep my head up and post an update on our progress at some point.

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As for this whole graduating college thing, however, it isn’t as easy to just push aside the bad stuff and move on with the challenges. I honestly don’t think that it has actually “hit me” yet that I’m done with school, but I’ve already started to see changes taking place. It’s particularly noticeable since I’m still in my college town for the summer. Since graduation a little over a week ago, I’ve watched the majority of my friends move away – some have moved on to their new life with their new big kid jobs and others went back home until they are able to figure out what comes next. I’ve also had to start dealing with things that my parents always took care of for me during college, like figuring out how to move all my crap across the country to Colorado and buying new furniture on a new budget. But more important than figuring out the intricacies of coordinating a new “grown-up” lifestyle after college is the realization that my life, as a whole, is about to change. Big time.

Yes, gone are the days of drinking our faces off until the sunrise on a Wednesday night and sleeping off the hangover until 2pm the following day. Gone are the days of skipping a class just because I didn’t feel like going and choosing to take a nap in the student center instead. I can no longer show up to my morning classes in yoga pants and my boyfriend’s sweatshirt with my hair on top of my head and sit in the back row so I don’t have to deal with answering questions in class if I don’t feel like it. And at some point, I’ve got to admit that gone, too, are the days of eating El Rancho after bars on a Thursday night with the intentions of having a kick-ass workout on Friday since I don’t have classes to deal with. No more awesome student discounts, choosing a laid back class schedule, workouts at 10am, or study sessions at Pershing until 7 in the morning.

More than all of these things, though, is the essence of who I am and what my purpose is in the world. No longer under the guidance of teachers and classmates, organizations and tons of close friends, I want to find what I really want to do with my life. Yes, I have an awesome job starting in a couple of months and it happens to be in one of my dream locations. That itself is an accomplishment on its own. I realize that. But what about the changes I want to make in the world and the things I want to see happening 10, 20, 50 years from now?

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I want to find a way to make a difference in the world. I want to be passionate about what I end up doing with my life, and I want it to make a difference. Whether that comes through my career, volunteer opportunities, or simply sharing my thoughts on my silly little blog, I want to live my life with a specific purpose in mind. I’ve been praying that I might discover that purpose someday soon. Until then, I guess I’ll continue to focus on being a puppy momma and preparing for my big move to CO. The rest will fall into place. It has to, right?

18 Days.

She turned her can’ts into cans and her dreams into plans <3

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Well, folks, it’s already May. May 2014. As in the month that I graduate from college. The month I’ve been looking forward to and dreading all at the same time. This month brings so much baggage with it. So many goodbyes, so many people moving away, the end of my college career (for now), and the beginning of the end of this crazy, laid back college lifestyle that I’ve been taking for granted for nearly four years now. But this month also brings many wonderful things with it, like the end of studying for hours on end and cramming for tests. The start to one last summer spent in Columbia with one of my best friends before I start my ‘big girl job’. And the start to an awesome new chapter in my life.

There are eighteen days left until graduation, and time couldn’t be flying by any faster. I’m getting to the point where I’m not quite ready to leave all that I’ve known for the last four years, but I also can’t wait for the new life I have waiting for me after college. My world and everything I’ve become accustomed to is about to be turned upside down. No more conveniently working out at a different time every day depending on my mood and my laid back class schedule. No more going out to bars until 2am on a weeknight when everyone else is going just for the hell of it. No more sleeping in until 11am on Fridays because I don’t have classes. No more luxurious several-hour-long Sex and the City rerun marathons in the afternoon with my roommates because we have nothing better to do. (This might be the worst one. It’s an obsession!)

The funny thing is, though, that when I take a step back and really think about it, I can’t help but be excited for the future. I can’t wait to start my new job in the industry that I love and the city that I dream about all the time. I’m excited to live downtown in a new, unfamiliar place and to go out and explore life on my own. And I certainly can’t wait to be surrounded by mountains and an outdoor lifestyle 24/7.

Sometimes I think we tend to get too caught up in analyzing our future and what we might be leaving behind. As a soon-to-be college graduate, I think I speak for most of my friends when I say that it’s almost all I can think about lately. But to live in the moment and just enjoy life as it’s handed to you – that is where true happiness comes from. It might be time to move on to a new chapter in life, but those memories will travel with you wherever you go. And that’s what really matters.

Spring is here! And so is my 22nd birthday!

 “Every spring, the women of New York leave the foolish choices of their past behind and look forward to the future.” – Carrie Bradshaw

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Well, friends, spring is finally here in the good ole midwest USA. My awesome sister sent me some beautiful flowers (pictured above) for my birthday, which is tomorrow. The sun is shining, people are out and about enjoying the weather, and I couldn’t be happier!! With warm weather comes all sorts of great things like cute springy clothes complete with bright colors and loud patterns…And Starbuck’s iced passion tea lemonades, pedicures on-the-reg, and doggy park days with the pup (which Mr. Nugget and I will be doing tomorrow – don’t worry, I’ll post pics of the handsome little guy!)

The quote above is from one of my favorite shows, Sex and the City. I am a tiny bit obsessed with “Carrie Bradshaw” and LOVE coming home after classes to watch reruns of the show almost every afternoon. As for leaving my “foolish” choices behind and looking forward to the future…I’m trying to hold out as long as possible before doing that! Graduation is only a month away now and I am NOT ready for all of the big changes coming up in my life! I’m sure I’ll love having a big girl job and living in Denver and all that fun stuff when the time comes, but for now I’m going to relish my youth and enjoy my laid-back college lifestyle.

Anyway, I went to VonMaur today just to get out of the house for a little while and found this adorable sleeveless top and white daisy necklace to wear out for my birthday celebration tonight. So springy and fun with a cute accent on the back!

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ImageAnyway, just wanted to share some spring weather lovin’ on this beautiful day! Hope you’re all having a bright, cheery day as well!